Blogging

[22 Jan 2007 | Monday] 

Category: Blogging What do you see when you're down there in the cold, wondering to yourself what tomorrow holds? You're thinking too much. It's hurts a little, but you're lamenting and that's dragging out the little sting into a slow burn like a match across coarse skin. What the hell is wrong with you? Doing this to yourself after all this time? Exposing yourself like some kind of school boy with a fucking crush. You're got no business being here, no place in this world, no heart to lend, no soul to expose. You shouldn't even be in this position. Just give it up, and yet... and yet it still hurts, still aches like something's there, like the nothing that shoulda been gone has somehow returned. How can that be? When could it have happened, because if it did then I sure as hell wasn't privy to that little bit of information. Going on and on, drawing conclusion upon conclusions. What does the future hold, he asks himself in a somewhat hopeful tone, knowing full and well that he has no business having hope in the first place. Honestly, I don't know what to do with the conclusions that I've drawn.  I never intended on exposing myself and now I'm finding that... it's probably something that I should not have ever done. I took a giant leap of faith, that's for sure... right into a bottomless chasm and I don't quite know if there's a net waiting to catch me or not. Don't know what to do anymore.