Day Two

[04 Jan 2007 | Thursday] 

Spent my day running errands with my mind floating over the same topic over and over again. Why is it that once I let her in, it's like I become instantly infected? It seriously bothers me that this has become the true nature of our relationship. At an arm's distance, we work fine, but once I start to let her into emotional center, things start to take a turn. Now I can't say that she's already started to drive me insane, but goddamn it it's getting there. It's almost like there's these tiny tenedrills crawling up and down my skin, repeating whatever it was that set me off this time. I don't even know where to begin, or even if I shoudl begin. She's not my problem after all. Let some other poor sap wander into the danger zone and find out just what kind of venus fly trap lies in waiting.... then again that's just the frustration talking. It's a thin line I'm walking here. In the end, it's funny how quickly old patterns start to repeat themselves. Just as I started to focus on how great the good times were, the bad times pop up a little bit and remind me too. What to do, what to do? Life lesson: Maybe I do need to learn to show some enthusisiasm when it comes to the opposite sex, but I'm very sure that the opposite sex needs to learn to stop looking gift horses in the mouths and accept a victory when they get them.