[20 Aug 2006 | Sunday]
 |  There comes a time to be free of the heart I wanna be ready, ready to start on a love journey, got places to go made up my mind and I've got to let you know -"Heaven Help" Lenny Kravitz I don't know how to say what I want to say. I'm at a loss for words at the moment, mostly because I've decided to go to a place I haven't been in a long while. -And really, how do you prepare for something like this? How does one embrace insecurity and exposure? It's cold out there in the open and so very dangerous. What am I expected to do? It's just like everyone has ben down this road a dozen times and they all know what to expect, they all know which sites are worth stopping for and which should be avoided. It's like driving to Vegas for the first time without a map and no clue which freeways to take. Where will I end up? Will I just recess into an even deeper sense of emotional apathy. Will my walls just go up again, this time a dozen times thicker? You know what, dude? Honestly, just fuck it all. I feel as though I should be opening myself up to new experiences and new people. It's time for me to crawl out of my fucking shell and live a little bit on the razor's edge. I'm going to get hurt because love is a cruel bitch, and maybe just maybe I'll come out on the end a better, healthier, happier person. yeah fucking right, but hell if Elvis can get millions of people to love him despite his being a racist, ignorant asshole then anything's possible! oh and if you're wondering what made me want to blog about this in the first place... The Karate Kid came on. Ali with an "I" will always haunt me. I think I may have mad my Ali, once, for a short little stint, but then again I could be wrong and she may be just around the bend... let us hope and pray for the latter, boys and girls... |
No comments:
Post a Comment