Pam, relax....

[09 Mar 2007 | Friday] 

My Goddess,   Honestly, I've come to realize that the better the night we share together, the most likely it will be that you will leave my life. I understand why this is and I really have come to terms with it, in my own way. I hope you stick it out some though. I asked you what you remembered about last night for a reason, because I wondered if you knew (remembered really) how exposed I was in front of you. Underneath all of the shells and coats of jaded history, there lies one last skin, one that is made of wax, a last defense if you will. I guess I keep it around so that even those people who get close to me are still held at a slight distance. Last night, that wax film melfted away in front of you. When I told you that a tear had welled up, it's because it was true. You had reashed my core. I was scared and worried for a moment, but then knew that you wouldn't knowingly hurt me and I was okay with being there with you, completely exposed.    I know you might not be here tomorrow and I completely understand why, but I hope that you never regret any of what happened. I don't... and I want you to know that you have your talons firmly dug into me. You are under my skin and will hopefully remain there for a very long time. Thank you, thank you for the pain, thank you for the happiness, thank you for simply going out with me. I really did have a fantastic time.   And see, my Goddess, though you hurt me.... really bad, no marks! You really are good at this. hahahahahahaha And by the way, this message is for your eyes only... a private thank you... ::kiss:: ((ouch))... I really had a great time!