Regret-

[29 Apr 2006 | Saturday] 

Regret- I've hurt so many people in my time on this earth. It's crazy when you even try to add them up, all of those crying faces. People look at me, this sweet and caring person, this person incapable of doing all of those horrible things that those "other" people did in the past. They look at me and they're almost shocked, as if to ask, "I thought you were different. How could you do this?" To that I have no excuse. I'd simply hang my head in shame. You see, for all my rhetoric, for all of my bullshit about nice guys and hopeless romantics, I'm still a scared young child at my core. The fear drives me away, into that cold and distant way of behaving, and though that is no excuse for it, it is my only explanation for why I do the things I do. They say you can never love someone unless you first love yourself. Obviously that is a threshold I have yet to cross. Suffice it to say, for now, all I can do is try to make ammends to the people from my past.... ...all I can say is I'm sorry.