Spring is in the Air, Time for Love

[28 May 2006 | Sunday] 

I never really lent much credence to that whole Spring thing about love and stuff. It's weird though, was I this inspired to seek out a new person in my life just a few months ago? What's the deal now? Why, suddenly, do I feel that I can't wait around any longer? Maybe this is just my time. So many things have fallen into place for me, and I guess I see myself as ready (not just ready but more attractive than ever) and I think it's time I moved on it. So the question begs to be asked, "What the hell am I looking for?" Well, before you get all, "You shouldn't look, man, love comes to people when they're not paying attention", let me stop you right there and just say, fuck you. I've waited too damn long to meet someone good, and you're not going to spoil this mood for me with your patience is the greatest virtue talk. Now, back to what I want. Let me preface this with a little history. The last few girls I've dated have loved me and I can't blame them. I'm a great fucking guy, sensative, caring, loyal, all that shit. I'm the embodiment of a nice guy at my creamy center, though I occasionally come off as an asshole as more of a defense mechanism, I think. You try getting hurt as often as I have and walk away with no ill effects. The thing is all of these girls have loved me but I've never really felt the same for them. I was there, but it hasn't ever been love, and that's not to say they weren't cool. They were all extremely nice and wonderful to me, but that doesn't automatically equal an emotional connection, you know? So, I guess I just want to meet a chick that I can love. I've been through enough of just the girls loving me, I don't need that ego trip. I want somebody that's going to inspire me, someone as funny as me, someone that I'm just going to be so impressed with that I'll be like, Fuck, you're awesome! I love you! So what gets me going? I've always had a thing for glasses. Maybe it's just my inner geek that's always on the outlook for one of my ilk, maybe it's that I want a girl who doesn't give a fuck what anybody thinks and wears her glasses anyway (saying to hell with the more aesthetically accepted contacts), or maybe it's that I want that sort of librarian bun-glasses combo that's going to whip her hair down and ravage me like all the rest of them never could! Hehe, that would be sweet. I just like the glasses. I love dark hair on a girl. Someone witty who can carry a great conversation. I need intelligence without the need to constantly prove said intelligence. I want confidence without conceit. Someone who definately loves the simplicity of touch and physical closeness. An artist or a writer would probably suit me best, though I couldn't say because I've never dated an accountant haha. I want my Ali with an "I", and if you get that reference you're already in my good graces. That girl who's there for you and backs you up through even the worst of the worst. What you've got to understant is that, with my friends at least, we're all down for whatever. There's no question about it. So when I demand that of my woman, it's only because I know that's exactly how I'd be. I never let my friends go a second without knowing and fully understanding how much I love and appreciate them. I guess I've dealt with way too many fake people and now that I've got the genuine article, I'm not going to make the mistake of taking them for granted. So I guess that's me. That's what makes me up. Love, feel free to drop into my lap at anytime.