Tendencies

[16 May 2006 | Tuesday] 

There's this couple at work. Now, to look at them you'd nevrer be impressed by either of their physiques. To be quite honest, they're not very attractive at all, though I do have to admit that the girl is quite striking. She has one of those faces and smiles, hell there's a lot about her that I dig. It's her vigor and smile that tells me that she's just filled with life. It's incredible. That being said, I also realize that I know absoultely nothing about them and could be completely wrong about her. The thing that kills me about them is that they, set against every single couple I've ever seen walk through the doors at Hustler seem to be genuinely happy. Keep in mind that I run into a thousand newlyweds and soon to be's. I've bumped into the "we're been married forever"s and so many "goddamn it I hate you"s that I'm starting to think that they're the norm. -But those two, you know... it just makes me wonder if my other is out there or if I already have them. Why does that search for our other have to spin us around in so many goddamn circles that it just ends up making us vomit all over ourselves? Suffice it to say, I'm getting sick of this shit.... and I'm feeling lonely again.... though it should just be that I'm feeling okay whereas lonely should be the norm.... aww fuck it.